When mom is gone........

This is it. My first mothers day without a mom. I am certain that many of the readers have been there before me but this weekend it is my turn and I don't like it. Sure our mothers are not always kind, loving and caring. I am sorry if your experience was that way. And if it was, don't deal with the feelings alone. Find someone to talk to. Associations of psychology have listings of good people or simply talk to a friend, write your feelings down and reach out for help.

My mom was sick a lot of the time but she was a good mom. She gave me five bucks when dad wouldn't and she loved people. She cooked beautiful meals and invited new neighbours into our home to eat and talk. But this weekend will be odd. Mom is dead. She was too young to die and she was too good to talk to. It makes me think of how I live. It makes me think of the gift of life. The moments in time are so important and yet I take them for granted. Wasting time. So this weekend I am planning a feast. I will slow cook a roast beef on charcoal, bake some red potato fries and make broccoli with olive oil and toasted cashews. Mom liked them that way. I will invite my uncle and aunt and my dad and we will eat and laugh and tell stories. Stories of my mom. That will be mothers day. There is an ancient middle eastern proverb that says, "the bitter and the sweet walk hand in hand." This mothers day I hope you can find some sweet and celebrate your mom.